And a letter came...

It was late Saturday afternoon when I got the letters out of the Mail box. Decater Alabama. What the heck is this? OMG its the letter! Its the letter!
My boyfriend Carl says, "What is that? I think I've drove there before."
I have not told him about my project. It's kinda a secret. I mean its not really, but I guess I don't want him to think I'm silly, wasting my time. I should tell him, besides its not him that I'm used to the smart ass remarks from, It was my previous mistake. And Carl is not a mistake.

I avoid the question and go on with my mail, shoving it to the back. When I have some privacy I decide to open it. This by the way is killing me. I go off into the bedroom to open the letter.

The manuscript on the envelope is dainty and fine-antique really. I believe its from an older woman. Jane must be older. I open the envelope and find inside a letter that is folded. It is my letter, the same letter that I sent to her. Inside is the $25. I'm dissapointed. I should be happier that she sent it back and happier that I even got a response. Maybe I made her think about it, but there was no note, no explination so I'm guessing that she focused on the line that said,
" If you don’t feel comfortable at all doing this then simply send this money back in the envelope I provided for you and I will resend it to someone else."

So I guess were back to finding my first person. Maybe this time I'll get it right. I just recently visited Iowa, and had never really been in the state....I think my next person will be from iowa...and I'm thinking an man....

Ten things I want to do in my life

Everyone has goals and aspirations that they want to accomplish in thier life. I of course want to be a monther- I have two wonderful children and would love to have more, If the ability to adopt children was an option then I might consider it. Maybe in the future when I know that I can provide a more stable inviornment fo an adopted child I will do that, or maybe I can be a foster parent. I want to be a grandmother too, I want to open my hear to people, its the only thing that I have found that gives me complete satisfaction asa person...on the other hand there are other things that I want to do, that I enjoy. So in no aparent order...these are 10 of the top things I want to do in my life...

* Take a ride in a hot air balloon with my children-my daughter especially

* Learn how to fly a plane (a small one)and take a small trip with it

* Write a novel and have it published (currently working on that)

* Take a trip to Italy-I am 50% itallian and it shows

* spend a whole summer camping-I love the outdoors

* Put all my poems in a book for my children/grandcildren to have when I die

*open my house up for somene who needs to get back up on thier feet and become a part of thier growing experience

* Buy a piano and learn how to play it

* buy a classic mustang-69 or older and completely restore it doing most of the work myself

* see myself in a size 6, and be ok with the muffin top if I still have one... :)

That's a hefty list huh? Maybe I've set my goals high...maybe not, the only thing I ask is that God gives me the amount of time I need to complete it. I have a lot left to contribute to this world, and I am ready.

Flowers For Her

My girlfriend just recently went though a divorce too, and so here we both are doing the dating/new relationship thing-its hard sometimes, how can it not be-right? With out her support I would be lost sometimes and i know that goes the same for her too. I wanted to do something special for her this last weekend to show her I love her.
She's not too informed on planting flowers, or gardening, or anything living that you have to water for that matter, but i know this, and i know how much she likes flowers. So its my bright idea to go to her house while she's working the night shift and make a flower garden for her. I had so much fun, I love planting flowers, and her kids were home with the babysitter so they got to help me. We planted a pink rose bush and surrounding it we planted begonias, petunias, and some other pink and yellow flowers...we put some solar lights around the front and we mulched it. It was so pretty, and not too much for her to take care of. I left a card for her that said-
" Now you never have to wait for a man to bring you flowers"

Thank God for sunny days,the smell of babies, and best friends that help the pain go away...